April 2019

April 4th, 2019 I’ve wanted to write this post for a while now and finally feel strong enough to relive all the emotions of this day and the days that shortly followed as well as the autopsy results we received. Not everyone that goes through my similar situation would feel comfortable openly sharing all the…

We’ve gotten a lot of questions about our ectopic pregnancy these last couple of months. I actually wrote this a while back but I want to start writing Ren’s birth story and this is the last few years leading up to that. I wouldn’t say that I necessarily struggle with fertility yet but there have…

Danielle Keith offered to take these beautiful photos of Ren’s nursery for us as well as the photos that were taken at the hospital and we can’t thank her enough for these memories. You can see all the love and gifts that were poured into this room. The triangles were put in this order to…

Ren, I’m sitting here in my hospital bed next to you and I can’t help but feel all the emotions at once. Your lips have turned dark and you’ve lost all the color in your face. They keep coming in to ask about our funeral arrangements and when they should take you. I can’t help but…

I am so grateful to be apart of such a strong community of women. They have been nothing short of light to our family since our diagnosis. I couldn’t imagine not having these people to look to for advice with Ren. All of these women have a small child and or children with Down Syndrome….

You’ve got to hear a lot about what I’ve gone through. But you haven’t got to hear from the one that keeps me together. Tommy has been keeping a journal and has been very diligent on writing in it daily, even before we knew about Ren. I want to share with you guys one of…

August 25th, 2018 Tommy and I were out and about, we ran to Walgreens to get me some more dry shampoo (a girls best friend). While we were there, I thought we might as well get a pregnancy test since we had been trying at this point. Though it was a little early to take…

Written December 8th, 2018 In the last 48 hours, I have never shed so many tears in my entire life. I’ve had happy thoughts as well as sad thoughts thinking about all the things we will and won’t be able to do with our son. Thoughts of all the plans and activities we’ve always wanted…